I am so exhausted. If only sleep came as easily every night that I'm not reeling from the terror of roller coasters. :/ Every evening as I get ready for bed I tell myself, "Tonight I will sleep soundly and wake up refreshed." Every morning I fall asleep sometimes by 1AM, sometimes not and I awake at exactly 3AM. If I'm lucky, I fall asleep again within minutes of checking the front door, but sometimes I will lie awake for hours, angry at myself for not being able to sleep.

We had a nice game night and I came home wound up so I watched some Tivo and wrote a horrible parody song, then just lay here, waiting. Waiting, waiting, waiting. Finally asleep, then awake by 7. There is not enough caffeine in the world to keep me going at this rate.

What thoughts keep my company through these sleepless days and nights? Stuff like, how will I finish X before its due date; why do short men lie about their height, even to themselves; can my neighbors see into my apartment now that my eucalyptus tree has been pruned so horribly; does Mittens hate me for bringing Melody into the house; will Chris hate me for living in California when all his friends are in Washington; will I be able to fill out all the paperwork needed for my car, my divorce, my quests, my travel expenses, or whatever correctly and on time; will I have enough money to pay all my bills this month; why can't I sleep anymore?

Insomnia sucks. I've been awake now for three hours and everyone else is just getting up. Lucky ducks.