So much is happening, it makes me tired to think of it. I spend my day jotting to do list notes and then my evenings crossing the items that I've done off that list and transferring un-done stuff to a new list for the next day.

I am sure there are items that aren't making it onto the lists because they haven't occurred to me to do yet.

Phil is going on sixth grade camp from tomorrow through Friday. We spent a lot of time packing for it last night as his bags needed to be at school this morning for transport to the camp itself. A lot of stress might have been avoided if his calls (five of them) had been returned to let him know that items he needed would be available for pick up at his former residence.

I think of all the stuff going on right now, this is what upsets me the most, that my children are being upset. I'm an adult and I usually have the resources to deal with other people's behaviour or lack thereof. My boys don't have the life experiences to be able to explain away or to understand why someone would act this way to them.

So when I took them to church on Sunday, their stepmother did not show up for their normal service. Instead, we hunted her down in a Sunday school room and I encouraged both boys to stop in to speak with her. They had not seen her since the prior Sunday when she came to pick them up but left without them. Chris was especially upset as she brought with her quite a few of his personal possessions (which her son and I transferred from their car to mine) and then asked if he wanted to move "home." More of his personal items were delivered to the church that night where he attended his usual youth group, prompting him to ask me if she was trying to get rid of any evidence he exists because he didn't answer her question with a "yes."

My heart breaks for my cherubs, who are torn between what they've been used to and what they have now with me. They miss their neighborhood friends and their father. They aren't used to living with me. We have to get up at 6AM (and believe me, this is more a chore for me as I'm losing sleep both in the middle of the night and with this early wake up call) so that I can drive them to their familiar schools. Rob has never had children so it's probably an adjustment for him.

And then the job situation. I've never been unemployed via lay off before. It's weird to say it and weird to think of it. I've applied for several jobs but I know that whatever happens, I'll be making significantly less money as I intend to work closer to home.